you need to be skinny to be happy...well thats all LIES!

well it's lies for some people, so today in english we were discussing a topic that hit close to home: body image! my class was discussing the pressure to look a certain way and the fashion industry, well i agree society and media do pressure people (girls and boys equally) to look a certain way, i say its bout time to stop all this nonsense, people can be happy whater size they are, im fat and in general im very happy.

i will admit that i have bad days and issues like financial and fat issues, obvie lmao, but generally im happy, why?? because i have a house, food every nite and i have a loving family, and great friends (who are all werid like moi in their own way lmao but i still loves them) like jess, dylan, sarah, alex, natalie, jeremy, amyy and another dylan, and im sure they wud be there for me just like family (well a few at least lmao) .... *tears up a little* so yea im pretty happy in general :P

i have lost one friend tho and to tell u the truth i dont give a shit, cuz in reality i was the best friend she cud have had (not being self obsessed) because i was so nice to her and i bought her nice things for no reason and i got nothing in return so i was a good friend and its her loss, but now i dopnt have a best friend....im just agirl lonely without her bestie, we have been friends for 13 years so its kinda hard to not be friends

i also hate this one girl at skool, shes so annoying and shes a slut, she's always dressing slutty and she thinks shes all that in a bag of potato chips, mmm... potato chips, thats off topic, my friend thinks she was trying to take all his friends away since she ws mad at him but he's weird so yeah, i do think that wen ppl are talking to her friends she tends to take them away from ppl tehy r talking to, its happened to me wen i was talking to my friend so its annoying
well im done for now lmao

xoxo
happy fat girl

baby it's cold outside

hola

omgee its cold outside, well i dont live far from skool but since today was cold i decided to take the bus (should be walking because im fat lmao) well i went to get my money out for the bus and i look and its GONE, so i walk home in fucking -21 weather and im COLD, then wen i get home i find my damn bus money ARGHHH! anyways so my day was okay i guess.

today i realized a few meanings of the phrase "you always want what you can't have"

- well in yesterday's blog (i think it was yesterdays lmao) i said i was over this guy, well today im not entirely sure i am, we were never dating and by the way im writing this u would think we were lmao, and he has a girlfriend so yea, this is the most common meaning of the phrase lmao

- well about my bus situation, well usually i have to wait forever for a bus but of course today wen i was walking i saw at least 6 buses within 30 mins ugh

so yeah that was my day's amazing parts lmao that's kinda sad

starting 2MORROW i will be over my crush, yep its alot to ask of a girll who has crushed on this guy for 2 and a half years now lmao but im gonna do my best, maby even find a new crush :P


xoxo
fat girl

desperate guy calls for desperate measures

hola bloggers,


uhmm today has not been a very good day :(

well for starters lets just say i am no longer crushing on Princess :( i saw him with his gf and now i see he's pretty happy so im gonna have to find another crush lmao, Robert Pattinson is on that list but i need a guy from skool as well, tho Robert is still hott enough for me lmao, damn i just realized that i have crushes on guys with gfs just like rob's issues with crushing on girls with bfs


and then i get home and my "lifestyle change plan" its going so well, well it was for the first half of the day wen i was at skool, then en i got home i started snacking and thats not a good idea, i had cookies and a pudding (not healthy) and an apple which is healthy.



uhmm well so i have this friend (and i dont mean to be mean but just saying the truth) and he's uhmm desperate for a gf, he's always asking out his close friends and im not sure if thats healthy for him to ask them because every time he gets rejected then he just feels lousy. im not saying he shouldn't ask girls out if he reallie likes them but i think he should be sure, he recently asked out another one of his friends, this would be the second time and i think that if she liked him she wud have said yes the first time like seriously, everytime he gets rejected by his friends he gets all depressed acting like its the end of the world, WELL NEWSFLASH ITS NOT there are other more important things like food and skool NOT WASTING TIME MOPING ABOUT A GIRL WHO REJECTED YOU, ITS BETTER THEN BEING DUMPED DONT CHA THINK???? any way i think that he thinks that his life is over ifhe dont have a gf in high skool (i dont have bf obvi and im not freaking out and going around saying "my life sux cuz she wont go out with me") life's a bitch, GET OVER IT! so i have this friend who thinks differently of this situation, i think he's desperate and its kinda sad but my friend thinks that he's gay and that he's trying to prove a point that he's not, well i can't know for sure but i don't think he's gay

wow this is a long paragraph bout this (well its been goin on since last year so yeah it deserves to be longer)



xoxo

fat girl

in honour of Barack Obama.....lmao

so i was looking at my email earlier and i got this weird picture lmao

this is a window of lululemon in Washinton D.C

in honour of Barak Obama's inauguration

yea my mom sent this to me lmao

xoxo
fat girl
who wears lululemon pants <3

First Day

today is my first official day of my lifestyle change plan (diet) and im super excited, so far i have written down everything i ate and i have not had any juice today WOOT! but i am still always hungry so not doing so well with the water lmao. this lifesyle change plan is going to be so much harder than i thought, i need to step up my game and i realize its only the first day but still i dont need to start slacking off even on the first day

today was also my first full day of second semester and i have a very hard semester ahead of me. taking anthro, bio, english and math, i hate math its so boring, i cant seem to remember anything from last year, me and my friend jess have 2 classes together and i have 3 classes with another friend

so my day was okay today, i had environmental club with my friend jess and we have this contest for a mural for the environmental club, its kool. oh and today is my crush princess' (me and jess came up with the name) birthday but we're not exactly friends so i didnt say anything.
so my friends party is on saturday and i have NO GIFT YET! im not sure wut to get her, she likes nascar, johnny depp and the dark knight but im still not sure, she hast told me wut she wanted so its kinda hard, well have to go do hwk ugh so ill try to be bak on later if possible

xoxo
fat girl

My Plan!!!

hola bloggers,

this is my quote unquote DIET plan. i dont like the word diet cuz it kinda makes me feel like im only eating better to lose weight, well im chooseing to eat better because i dont only wanna be skinnier but healthier as well. so im now going to call it my lifestyle change plan.

My Goal - to lose 100 pounds by my birthday (i do noe that thats alot to lose and it adds up to like 2 pounds a week ugh)
My Plan - well i read somewhere that it is good to write down all the food you eat in a day in a book so ur less tempted to eat more because u dont wanna see a long list there lmao, so thats my plan so far, eat healthy foods and record it in my book, NO MORE UNESSESARY SNACKING, so it's basically like a diet but im not gonna call it that. oh and u shud always include excercize in ur plan, me and my friend will be going to the gym together (not to look at hott guys like last time because it was distracting if u noe wut i mean lmao)
ooh and i will also post results every week so i can share my progress with u all.

xoxo
fat girl